Long Update

So I told you I would post a picture of the blankets. Here they are. Hopefully you can get a good idea of what they look like because the picture doesn’t do them justice.

Here is a picture of the kids and me decorating the Christmas tree.

Also wanted to post some pics from Christmas morning.

The girls both got Sophia dolls. I guess this is a new princess but they love her.

Jett got the game Life. I played this game with my parents all the time and loved it. I was trying to find things special I can do with just him.

Jett also got football cards and plastic sleeves with a binder. He also got a fish aquarium. In October he won a Beta fish from the school fall festival. We told him if he could keep his fish alive for more than 3 months he could get more. He is super excited over getting some new fish.

The girls got American Girl beds too. Of course these were from Target so they were inexpensive. I had found woodworking plans for an American Girl bed that even John thought he could hep with but then I got sick so I had to go with store bought ones.

So fast forward to January 7,2014. Today once again found me on my way to the hospital. I started to have have the black tar stool again. Once I got to the Emergency Room and was taken through admitting and my blood pressure was so low that they rushed me into a trauma room. I had nurses and doctors working all around me trying to get my blood pressure up to normal. That was quite a scare. They decided I needed to be moved to the ICU. Here they pumped all sorts of fluids into me and got my blood levels up to normal. The idea was to do another scope to figure out where the black tar stool was coming from. Something inside of me was bleeding and they weren’t sure what. After a lot of discussion it was determined that this procedure was too risky. My body has been through so much recently that they afraid I wouldn’t make it out of this procedure. So I decided that I would enter Hospice and give myself at least a little more time with my family. So on Thursday January 9 I was taken over by ambulance (my first ride ever in an ambulance) over to Hospice House.

Let me try to explain this new development. I decided that my body is done fighting. It is just to weak to do any more treatments or chemo. It is my time to just spend my last days with my family. While this decision was very hard to make I knew it was coming. I decided to enter the Hospice House instead of going home for several reasons. Here I have a nurse 24/7 and other helpers to make my stay comfortable. I have pain medication here that the nurse can administer throughout the day or night. Most importantly this facility is very family friendly. The kids can come and go as they please, they have a little playroom, and several outside walkways and benches. The other very important reason I didn’t go home was that I didn’t want my kids to discover mommy at home or even see me in pain while at home. I wanted our house to remain a safe, good filled memory place. I never want my kids to have nightmares about our house or how safe it is. This overall was perfect.

I celebrated what will probably be my last birthday here. Thought I would share some pictures with you.

The girls made me a birthday cake that they were very proud of.

Jett made me a birthday card to hang in my room. I love it.

This is something I have been wanting to do for some time now. We are planning of framing this and putting it somewhere in the house. The kids had a ball doing this and I think it turned out really good!

I really wanted to thank everyone for all their prayers. I know that God answered a lot of prayers and I have to trust that God is going to continue to answer prayers for my family. Please pray for peace for my family as well as myself as we go through this very difficult time. Mostly pray that God will keep my kids safe and continue to work in their lives.