Long Update

So I told you I would post a picture of the blankets. Here they are. Hopefully you can get a good idea of what they look like because the picture doesn’t do them justice.

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Here is a picture of the kids and me decorating the Christmas tree. photo

Also wanted to post some pics from Christmas morning.

DSCN1674The girls both got Sophia dolls. I guess this is a new princess but they love her.

DSCN1676Jett got the game Life. I played this game with my parents all the time and loved it. I was trying to find things special I can do with just him.

DSCN1682Jett also got football cards and plastic sleeves with a binder. He also got a fish aquarium. In October he won a Beta fish from the school fall festival. We told him if he could keep his fish alive for more than 3 months he could get more. He is super excited over getting some new fish.

DSCN1683The girls got American Girl beds too. Of course these were from Target so they were inexpensive. I had found woodworking plans for an American Girl bed that even John thought he could hep with but then I got sick so I had to go with store bought ones.

So fast forward to January 7,2014. Today once again found me on my way to the hospital. I started to have have the black tar stool again. Once I got to the Emergency Room and was taken through admitting and my blood pressure was so low that they rushed me into a trauma room. I had nurses and doctors working all around me trying to get my blood pressure up to normal. That was quite a scare. They decided I needed to be moved to the ICU. Here they pumped all sorts of fluids into me and got my blood levels up to normal. The idea was to do another scope to figure out where the black tar stool was coming from. Something inside of me was bleeding and they weren’t sure what. After a lot of discussion it was determined that this procedure was too risky. My body has been through so much recently that they afraid I wouldn’t make it out of this procedure. So I decided that I would enter Hospice and give myself at least a little more time with my family. So on Thursday January 9 I was taken over by ambulance (my first ride ever in an ambulance) over to Hospice House.

Let me try to explain this new development. I decided that my body is done fighting. It is just to weak to do any more treatments or chemo. It is my time to just spend my last days with my family. While this decision was very hard to make I knew it was coming. I decided to enter the Hospice House instead of going home for several reasons. Here I have a nurse 24/7 and other helpers to make my stay comfortable. I have pain medication here that the nurse can administer throughout the day or night. Most importantly this facility is very family friendly. The kids can come and go as they please, they have a little playroom, and several outside walkways and benches. The other very important reason I didn’t go home was that I didn’t want my kids to discover mommy at home or even see me in pain while at home. I wanted our house to remain a safe, good filled memory place. I never want my kids to have nightmares about our house or how safe it is. This overall was perfect.

I celebrated what will probably be my last birthday here. Thought I would share some pictures with you.

photo-1The girls made me a birthday cake that they were very proud of.

photo-2Jett made me a birthday card to hang in my room. I love it.

photo copyThis is something I have been wanting to do for some time now. We are planning of framing this and putting it somewhere in the house. The kids had a ball doing this and I think it turned out really good!

I really wanted to thank everyone for all their prayers. I know that God answered a lot of prayers and I have to trust that God is going to continue to answer prayers for my family. Please pray for peace for my family as well as myself as we go through this very difficult time. Mostly pray that God will keep my kids safe and continue to work in their lives.


28 thoughts on “Long Update

  1. I have been praying for you daily and I will continue to pray that God will surround you and your family with love and peace.

  2. I pray for peace for you Michelle, and comfort for your family. You have been such an inspiration to me in your strength and your love for your children.

  3. I will always love you and your beautiful family. We think of you everyday and have such fond memories of the times we spent together with our Bible Study group! We are praying for you and your dear family! May God comfort you and give you peace during this time!

  4. The blankets are beautiful. Thank you for sharing so much with all of us. Continued prayers of peace and comfort for you and your family.

  5. YOU are in my daily thoughts and prayers! May God hold you in the palm of his hand. I will pray for your husband and children. YOU are a fighter and an inspiration to many!!!!

  6. The blankets are a wonderful gift to the kids. I know they will treasure them forever. Michelle you and your family remain in my thoughts and prayers daily. May God grant peace and comfort to you and your family. Love, Donna and Ed

  7. Michelle, the blankets are precious and the kids can snuggle in them to ibe close to you when you cannot be with them. We will continue to keep you and your family in our thoughts and prayers. If there is anything we can do to help, please let us know.

    God Blessings,
    Barb, Gary and Family

  8. Michelle, you have been in my prayers over the past couple years as I have followed your blog. My memories of you are very fond as we got to know each other during our Columbus years. You are strong, kind, faithful, and Godly woman. My prayers are daily with you and your family.

  9. Hi Michelle, this is Ashley Durig, from UALC. I thought of you and John the other day. My sister moved just down the street from where you lived in Delaware. I wondered how you and your family were. I am praying for comfort for you and your family. God is with you and I’m praying your children and John also know that truth in their hearts! All Love, Power and Mercy in the great Healer’s name! Amen.

  10. Michelle, I have followed your postings since you began to share your journey with us. I marvel at your courage and determination! Your children are so lucky to have your love and example. I continue to pray for you and your family. You are all so very strong!!!

  11. The blankets are beautiful and speak volumes of your love. Michelle you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, daily I pray that the peace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. Y’all are a very special family. Peace and joy.

  12. Dear Shelly,
    We continue to pray for you and your family for peace and healing. Know that you are surrounded by love and your family and friends love you so very much. You are such a strong and courageous woman and have been an inspiration to many! Remember our heavenly Father is with you every second and will never forsake you. We all long for the day when there is no longer any sickness or healing and when sweet Jesus will come and take us all to heaven together. Focus on that fabulous heavenly reunion and put all trust in God. We are here for you and we continue to pray.
    Sincerely and with love,
    (Friends of Jeff and Jennifer)

  13. I love the blankets! Those babies will treasure them! I hated to read your update. So not fair! Your courage is an inspiration. I feel the same way about dying at home as you do. Thinking of you and praying for your beautiful family!

  14. Michelle,
    I will pray for your peace and comfort and for your family to feel God’s presence in their midst. Thank you for sharing your journey with me, a complete stranger. Praying for you has been an honor and has strengthened my faith. God be with you.

  15. Michelle, I still think about you often. May God watch over you and your beautiful family during this time. God bless you all and I will be praying for you all. You are a beautiful woman and your strength and faith are truly inspiring.
    Ursula (nurse from St. Louis Cancer Care)

  16. Michelle,
    Ronnie and I will continue to pray for you to have Peace and Comfort and to feel the sweet presence of the Holy Spirit with you. You have been a Blessing to me and I have seen the Love of Jesus in you. Your strength as a Mom always putting your children first and planning special memories for them touched me and will be so treasured by them. We will conitnue as the years go forward to pray for your children and ask God to hold them especially close to him and watch over them. Praying for you and your family
    Ronnie & Debbie Harris

  17. Shelly,

    What a wonderful thing you did for your kids with the blankets. It is such a beautiful thing for them to have and something that will always remind them of their courageous and loving Mother. I have to say I am so heartbroken for you and your family, it does seem so fair for this to happen. I hope you and your family can find some comfort and peace.
    Much love,
    Amy – your classmate from Galt SDA Elementary and Lodi SDA Academy

  18. Dear Shelly,
    What an amazing person you are! Sharing your blogs and always such concern for your children. I have followed your blogs from the start until 6 months when we moved. I haven’t had my computer since last June and was pleased this morning when I got on the internet and found your blog. You and your family are in my prayers. Hospice is a wonderful service. I had them with Bob.

    I’m almost 88 and have Parkinson,s Desease which has slowed me down a lot but God has has blessed me through the years which I am thankful for. I miss my friends from Pewee and I’m
    sure your folks do too;

    You are a wonderful mother. I will be praying for you and peace for your family,

    Love and prayers,

    Irene .

  19. Michelle,
    You are a beautiful person filled with love and all of God’s blessings.
    God will continue to keep you near him and always watch over you and your family.
    Love always,
    Deb & Bill

  20. Michelle,
    Doris and I could not hold the tears back while reading your last update. What a fabulous power God has given you through this ordeal you’ve been battling. As you know so well, you haven’t been alone in your battle. So many prayers — from all across the country and from every walk of life. Your Creator has responded to those prayers in providing you the abilities to make good decisions at every turn in this journey. The choice you made re Hospice is so fitting to your pattern — kids first. Without doubt God has provided you with the faith and hope you’ve displayed, something that was instilled into your early Christian experiences. After all, a wise man said it 1500 years ago, “train up a child in the way he should go and when he’s old he’ll not depart from it.” As you continue from this point on Michelle, God will be closer to you as each day passes. His peace will be yours as you fellowship with Him in your thoughts. You and your entire family will remain in our prayer vigils as we await that miraculous day of Jesus’ coming for that fabulous reunion that takes us into eternity. Until then be assured, all will be cared for by a beneficent provider of all our needs. Think on these things.
    Lovingly yours,
    Norm and Doris “O”

  21. The blankets are so beautiful. I am glad you posted them, you did a great job. Loved seeing the kiddos, they have gotten so big. Looks like a wonderful birthday celebration. They did a great job on the picture with their hands, another wonderful memory. Will continue to pray. Thanks for sharing your birthday celebration and pictures.

  22. Dear Michelle,
    Me and the girls love the blankets. You did an awesome job. It will be something that they can cuddle with. You’ll always be there.
    We have always been praying for you. God is always guiding you. He is there for your kids and John. He will help you all through this. I hope you know how loved and cared for you are.
    Well,I just wanted to tell you that you all are in our prayers and we love you all. Take care and I hope we can keep in touch.

    Rebecca,Ashley,and sierra&faith

  23. Dear Michelle, It has been several years since I have seen you. I was the nurse at Maplewood 2 years ago and I remember you visiting. I pray for strength and support from God to you so you are comfortable and peace for you spouse and lovely children. The baby has really sprouted and you should be so proud of all of them. Your blankets are wonderful and have special memories for your children. Happy late birthday to you.

  24. Michelle, this is Amy, your nurse from Dr. Hildreth’s office. Let me just say, on behalf of all of us, (including Dr. H) we miss you, your smiling face and see your adorable kiddo’s. You fought an extremely hard battle with such grace-your in inspiration to many. Your in our daily thoughts and prayers.
    Blessings, Amy

  25. Hi Michelle, well the 6 degrees of separation gets smaller and smaller ….. I am a quilter and my dh too has the c connection, his DNA and bone barrow are playing not nice too. At the moment his INR is around 2 but whenever we visit a medic and the Wonderful Haeomtologist they look at him and say ….. ummmm you are very interesting reading what a lot has happened to you.
    I dont pray but I am sending you my warmest fuzzies and lots of hugs from down under.
    love sheila

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