Yesterday I had an appointment with the oncologist to look at the PET and MRI and decide a plan of attack. I have to admit I was terrified. When I looked at the images I couldn’t believe what I saw. My spine lit up like a Christmas tree. There were spots all up and down the whole thing. My pelvic bones lit up too. I have been having quite a bit of pain in the right one so this made sense. We talked about a chemo plan. John and I were very upset because it feels as if this is very bad and might number my days. However the doctor said we still have lots of treatment options. That was good news. The plan this time around is Gemzar. It is what is known as a smart bomb as it attacks metastatic breast cancer. This chemo is known to be the “easier” of the chemos. I will not lose my hair but I read online that it may thin out. Not really a concern at this point. The worst side effects are skin rash and dryness, upset stomach (which I will get a dose of medicine for that during my infusion) flu like symptoms the day after, and fatigue. The nurses all say there aren’t too many complaints and that I should be able to care for my family as normal. That was good news as I am fiercely independent and don’t like to ask for help. I will go once a week for three weeks (every Tuesday) and then get a week off. Today will be my first treatment. I will do this for 6 months. The hope is that right away it will relieve my back pain which means the chemo is working. I think half way through I will have another PET scan to check and see if it is working. After I am done with the 6 months I will be put on another hormone treatment. The thought is now that I have my ovaries out I may be through menopause. If that is the case I will need to take a hormone that is specifically for those who are through menopause. Hopefully that will keep the cancer away for a while. When that fails then we repeat this process. I am still faithful about my diet so hopefully this will aid in making chemo easier and help fight the cancer. Please pray that this will kill the cancer and that it won’t be to hard on my body. I also want to thank everyone for the outpouring of prayer on my behalf. It makes me very emotional to think that so many people care and take the time to pray for me. Thank you.