Friday found me once again perched on my breast surgeon’s examining table. Around Labor Day I started having tenderness in my ribs. It didn’t hurt all the time, only when I touched it or laid on it. At first I thought I had injured it working my abs out. However after a few days I realized that it wasn’t a muscle strain. Because my cancer went to my spine there is a huge possibility that the cancer could attack again in my bones. So you can imagine my concern when after a week the pain was still there and it was a very sharp pain when touched. My doctor, who has always been straight with me, examined my ribs. She told me that if there was cancer she would feel a bump on the rib. She didn’t feel anything but after consulting with my oncologist, thought we needed do a bone scan. I also have been experiencing a lot of back pain and she said that if it were to come back it would probably show in my spine first. She then told me that if I took Advil and it took the pain away then it wasn’t cancer. So I went home and took an Advil. It didn’t even touch the pain. I got really afraid that the cancer had come back.
Tuesday, the day of the scan, was a very stressful day as I had to prepare myself to hear that the cancer had come back. John and I both thought it was back. It was almost like we were starting all over. I hate the feeling of not knowing and waiting. When the results came in we were surprised. The scan came back normal. There is no cancer in my ribs. Praise God! There is an uptake in my spine but it is unchanged from my last scan. My understanding is that it shows that I had cancer but there are no more tumors at this time. So the plan is now to not have any more scans until I show symptoms that would concern the doctors. Now I have a benchmark for pain. I will always have to deal with a very painful back but at least I know what my new normal is. I hate the feeling that every new pain is the cancer coming back but I have to be a realist. I do have stage 4 breast cancer that could come back at any time. I will continue on my diet because I know God has blessed me.