On Friday I got the official report from the PET scan. On the report, the radiologist found that my lymph nodes showed cancerous activity. Okay I know what you are thinking but keep reading I promise it isn’t as bad as it sounds! My wonderful surgeon took a look at the film and didn’t see the same thing. She got in contact with my oncologist and he agreed with her. She then asked two different radiologists to take a look at my film. They agreed and found that what they see is brown fat. As I understand, it is a good fat that helps us burn calories. Because brown fat metabolizes sugar, it lights up on a PET scan. You are more likely to have this happen if you are thin and cold when they do the scan. So it really is good news! I am glad I have a great team of doctors that take the time to do research, call others, and really care about their patients!
So now that I am finished with active treatment I am looking forward to six months of freedom!!! I will have to go through another round of scans in six months. I also am still taking Tamoxifen every day to control any estrogen left in my body. I also still go once a month to get Xgeva which helps my bones fight the cancer and build new bone where the cancer attacked. This is an amped up version of Prolia- what someone would take if they had osteoporosis.
I have read about how hard it is for breast cancer survivors to continue on with their life after they finish treatment. Now that I am done I don’t want to think about the fact that I have or had cancer. I don’t want to remember everything I went through and I don’t want to worry about it coming back. I don’t want to be a “survivor” I just want to be a mother and a wife. I want to just live my life as if the last year didn’t happen! The only time I want to be reminded of the cancer is when I go to the doctor. I guess in my mind if I don’t acknowledge the fact that I have breast cancer then it doesn’t exist and I won’t give it an opportunity to come back.