I can’t believe that it has been 10 days since I posted. I thought I would update everyone on how many days I have left. I only have 1 day left. Monday will be my last day!!! I am so excited. Radiation has been much harder mentally than I thought. I think when I was doing chemo I only had to acknowledge the fact that I had cancer the one day I went to go get chemo. After that day I didn’t think about it for the next 2 weeks. I acted as if I was just a normal stay at home mom. During radiation, since I had to go every day, it is a constant reminder that I have cancer. It really starts to get you down. Physically this is much easier than chemo. The only side effect is fatigue and a horrible burn. Overall I have been pretty positive but I was at my breaking point last week. I was driving to the YMCA to work out and I broke down. I begged God to give me a sign that everything will be okay and that I would make it through this and the cancer wouldn’t come back. I typically listen to christian music (for those that live in St. Louis that would be Joy FM- 99.1) and music usually speaks to me. Just after I got done praying a song came on and it was like God wanted me to hear it. It is a new song and I had never heard it before. The song is called Stronger and it is by Mandisa. It is about how God is holding your hand through your trials and that you will make it through and the experience will make you stronger. What a great reassurance.
Yesterday the radiation machines broke down right before my treatment. (Those of you on FB already knew about this) The air that keeps the machines cool broke. I had already changed into my beautiful gown when they came and told me. They didn’t know how long it would take to fix the problem but I was welcome to wait or leave and add another day on. Guess what I picked?? I waited. In fact I told them I would wait 5 hours if I had to. It only took 30 minutes. So glad I waited!
My hair has started to grow back. Yeah!! While I didn’t loose all of my hair, it did get pretty thin. I was really looking forward to having it grow back and I wanted to see if it would look different. Many patients talk about chemo curl- where your hair grows back with curl- but I didn’t get any curl. It is still pretty straight. I do however have two new calics. They are very hard to manage!!! Most days I am not sure what to do with my hair and it sticks up in funny directions. I hope as my hair gets longer those will go away!!
We have had lots of snow that is sticking around a very long time!! So how do we keep Jett busy?
And when you are tired what do you do? Take a nap??? He didn’t know I was taking a picture. He was resting because riding a 4 wheeler is hard work!!! He rode for about 2 hours and loved it!!!
Of course I couldn’t leave the girls out. I know you all wanted some cuteness to make you smile.