So I have been absent for a while. I have been really busy getting ready for the holidays and going to doctor’s appointments. Also the whole family came down with colds and fevers. I hate being sick!! So I thought I would update everyone with all the doctor said. My biggest concern was being able to lift weights with my arm. I wasn’t sure if I could without taking the risk of getting Lymphodema. I understand that this condition can be painful. My doctor said that lifting weights might even be beneficial. I’m really liking that!! While it is very painful to do some of the machines I will just grit my teeth and carry on because I know it is good for me. Also I now have appointments for the radiologist and the plastic surgeon. My guess is that I will start radiation after the holidays. Hopefully that will be the end of my treatment for a very long while. Now I am still going to do Zometa each month but the side effects of that only last a day and they really aren’t that bad. After radiation I will start tamoxifen (oral medication that stops any other estrogen in my body).
Today has been one of the hardest days in a long time. As many of you may have heard, Elizabeth Edwards passed away yesterday. While a year ago this wouldn’t have meant a thing to me, today it means that a stage 4 fighter lost her battle. It is especially hard for me because when I was first diagnosed everyone used her as an example of women who were doing really well as a stage 4 fighter. It makes me think about how long I really have. Six years isn’t enough for me. Here I was so excited about not having any cancer in my body and this was like a bucket of cold water being thrown in my face. I know that each women responds differently to treatment so that gives me hope. Also I think about my diet, exercise, my treatment plan, my chemo combo, and my age, and hope that this makes me very different! I don’t know if every women with breast cancer was affected like me, but I do know this is a hard hit- especially for those of us with stage 4. I know one thing for sure- I plan to spend as much time with my kids now while I have good days!!
Okay so today wasn’t so wordless. Now on to the pictures. I haven’t posted any pictures of my precious children and I know some of you are having cuteness withdrawal, so here you go.
These are the girl’s Halloween dresses.
Kaylee’s first birthday party- actually it was just our family at Chuckie Cheese. We will celebrate her birthday in April with the other two. (I know I’m a bad parent)
The girls decorating the tree. Yes Kaylee is now walking- well it is actually waddling around. She looks too small to be walking yet.