Just thought I would update everyone on what is going on. I didn’t realize it has been a week since my last post. On Monday my mom went home. She will be back when I do my next chemo treatment. Since I feel stronger I figured she could go home and get some rest.
Things went really well this week. I am still doing the no sugar, meat, or dairy diet and I think it has really helped with energy. I have to confess that the first couple days were very hard as I felt hungry all the time. I was also very crabby! Now however my body seems to have adjusted and I feel really good! I still need to take naps in the afternoon but both girls usually are down for their naps so it isn’t a big deal.
This week I also started to write journals for each of my children. I have to say it is the hardest thing I have ever done but I feel that I want to leave something for my children in case the worse happens.
On Wednesday my sister and I went wig shopping. What fun!! I tried on several wigs and finally decided on one that is close to my hair cut. It was fun to see myself with long blonde hair.(A great way to see if a certain color works on you before you dye your hair!)- Never will I be a blonde!! The wig I picked out doesn’t fit now but when I do lose my hair they will adjust the fit and give it a hair cut. I was blessed once again. My insurance company will cover up to $300 for a wig and the wig I picked out was $316. Jett decided to name the wig Wendy Wig.
This week I have been struggling with my diagnosis. Being diagnosed with a stage 4 was devastating. At first I didn’t understand what stage 4 meant. After researching it online I learned that the stats for stage 4 are very bleak. Only 25% of patients live to see 5 years or more. The average life expectancy is 3 years. That information sent me into a tailspin. I then started looking for survivors that lived past 5 years and while it is rare I did find a few that have lived 11-15 years past diagnosis. I found that many of them changed their diet and lifestyle. So while I may never be in remission, I can treat my cancer as if it were a chronic illness. I will constantly be looking for cancer and when it returns I will be back on chemo or whatever treatment I can. I also know that with the Lord’s help and the right diet I can keep cancer at bay for a long time. I always tell everyone that at least it attacked my bones and not a major organ.
Again I want to thank everyone for their comments. It means a lot to me to know that people are praying for me. It also means a lot to know that people are reading my blog. When I am having a “down moment” or when I start to feel sorry for myself, it always makes me feel better to read the positive comments!!